Ok, so I am sure that there has always been attractive men in the world, I'm just noticing again.
While exHusband & I were together, I didn't feel attraction to other men. I would see an attractive man and think that they were good-looking or had a nice build, but I wouldn't feel that pull, that HMMMM that you get when you're attracted to someone.
For the first while after he left, I didn't notice any different. That has changed. There has been a few lately, sharing an elevator with the cu-tie after my therapy session, on the subway the other day, at the hospital yesterday, and at the park today. All good-looking, and all a bit of a hmmm.
At one point I was convinced that I would never find anyone who I was attracted to as much as my exHusband - felt a little screwed about it. The attraction I felt to these guys was not the same as that to exHusband, but it's a start.
Feels good, kind of like coming out of the fog, like my systems are running again, like maybe I'm healing a bit.