I'm at the end of my rope. BBJ2's sleeping pattern is too much to handle right now. I am contemplating "sleep training" but don't think I should (I don't think it is the correct thing to do for a baby) or that I can.
I did not do sleep training or crying it out with BBJ1. I received lots of suggestions to let him cry it out which always included examples of success stories, but exhusband and I did not think it was the right thing to do for our baby and toughed it out. He didn't sleep through the night until he was 1 and at daycare. He was able to fall asleep without nursing, if exhusband put him down by holding him and swaying while singing to him. He is now able to put himself to sleep without any 'crutches'.
This time is tougher, I now have 2 boys to take care of all day, no chance for a nap (BBJ1 almost never naps), and I think that BBJ2's sleep pattern is worse. So, I have been researching, looking for a magic bullet. One of the things I keep reading is "children need to learn how to put themselves to sleep" "this is a skill they need to learn to become adults", o.k. this may be true, but when? My child will need to drive one day but I'm not going to give him the keys to the car when he is 4. My boys will need to take the subway by themselves at some point, I'm not going to send them off with their tokens just yet. People need to eat solid food, but you don't give a one month old a steak. Most people seem to understand that children need to be introduced to different things at the appropriate age, and you can often tell the appropriate age by watching your children. It seems like the one exception to this is sleeping. If your baby can't put them-self to sleep, maybe they are not ready, maybe they still need you to parent them.
If your baby is crying, they need something, why is it o.k. to deny a helpless innocent child something they need, because it is inconvenient to you? Parents don't deny their babies a clean diaper or food when the baby is hungry. So the crying might not be due to a physical requirement, it may be emotional but so what? If you were crying about something for 20 minutes and your spouse was in the next room and didn't come and give you a hug how would you feel?
Regardless of my feelings on sleep training, I have tried a couple of things along the lines of sleep-training over the last two days, with no success. I have put BBJ2 in his crib when I know that he is tired, but he is awake. This results in either him crying immediately or him standing up and "calling" out. Last night I put him down and left him, I made it one minute before I had to go get him. I was balling my eyes out. I was crying for a few reasons;
1. for myself - so tired - so frustrated
2. for BBJ2 - he was so sad
3. for BBJ2 - poor guy has an evil mom who left him crying for all that time.
Even after last night's experience, I am still feeling desperate and wanting some solution, I just don't know what that solution is. I know that at some point he will sleep all night, I just want it to be now.